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i try not to think of us,

think about what used to be,

thinking of everything,

thinking of how you were with me,

i know u have to move on and i have to let you go.

but im just telling my feelings for you

that way you will already know.

we had our days

where we wanted to be alone.

where we didnt want to talk to each other,

but there was something we always know

we always know we would be there for each other

we would do anything for each other

this without a doubt.

what happen to our promises?

the one that we made

saying our love is true

that it would never fade

i see you with him,

holding him how you used to hold me

i hope you are happynow,

it seems like i hate you,

because of what you put me through,

it was something you had to do

this is my last song for you

i dont want to cry anymore

im finally moving on

took me a long time

but like i said this is my last song

this is my last ryhthm.

Wasn’t it you who said we needed time away,

wasn’t it you who also said baby never walk away,

why don’t i see the world like you do.

when every single time is a playtime to you,

the words you say brings no meaning at all to me.

My heart stop beating

when everything around me so confusing,

baby try to make me grab this situation,

imake me understand this affin confusion.

i hope you know it pains me to be on cloud 9 alone.

and if only you could see im no nintendo kid

like in those games you played.

i put up with your fights and insanity,

i stayed up the nights you were out with someone pretty,

and i hope you were ok, and make sure you call the next day,

but promise me not to talk about yesterday.

My heart stop beating

when everything around me so confusing

baby try to make me grab this situation

make me understand this affin confusion

i hope you know it pains me to be on twilight zone,

and if only you could see im no nintendo kid

like in those games you played.

And now that this song almost over,

i think we should have a time away from each other,

this time forever baby,

but i have to tell you that,

games over.

Once again people can ruined my mood! And like always why do i always have to sorry while both party make mistakes! and worst for me, the other party made mistake and dont even realize it!! Im so sick and tired of selfcentered, selfish minded people. grow up, admit your wrong, you might not realise it but, hey we all human, none of us are  perfect, so dont ever think that  we never did anything wrong!!

Stage One

The Realization - Lately you notice that things have been a bit rocky between you and your partner, well ROCKY may be an understatement! TREMULOUS, ROLLER COASTER RIDE FROM HELL is much more like it. Okay, maybe now I’m exaggerating. Anyways, you’ve come to realize that things aren’t going to work out unless you enjoy getting the "silent treatment". Somehow, the sparks that were flying at the beginning of the relationship have now turned into an uncontrollable forest fire. Ultimately, you need to muster up the courage and face the fact that things aren’t AREN’T WORKING.

Stage Two

The ACTUAL Realization - Okay, so you had the biggest fight ever and vow never to see him/her again. So, what happens now when you realize you can never call them again for a quick cup of coffee… or, at all? What if you start to miss them? What if they DON’T miss you? You might start to think maybe it wasn’t a good idea to break up after all. And then you have an epiphany. OF COURSE it was a good idea — the relationship wasn’t working out.  Don’t call them, remember you broke up for a reason. Just because you miss them doesn’t mean it’ll be great when you see them again. Just keep reminding yourself why you broke up in the first place and DON’T CALL THEM!

Stage Three

The Crappy Part - Once you realize that your life will be different, this is what I call the crap-pi-phany (like epiphany). You go through the phase of listening to songs that remind you of them, cry into a pillow that still smells like them, and agonize about what’s going to happen next. Your life may seem over, but trust me, time heals all wounds and even a broken heart will mend over time. This stage sucks, but it’s vital believe me. DO NOT hold in your hurt, you’ll only feel worst later on.

Stage Four

The Rage - That bitch/bastard! I treated them like gold! This is the most critical stage - Bitterness. You list all their annoying traits that you once thought was actually cute. Who actually uses the word "poopy"? At this point instead of wasting your day in bed watching old reruns of Maury Povich you get out of bed and dress to impress. Now that you look good and feel good you can actually say and believe, "if they don’t want me, that’s their problem, not mine." Over time you’ll start missing them less and love yourself more. Keep yourself busy with new hobbies, school, work and friends. There is no point feeling sorry for yourself when there is a whole world out there waiting for you with plenty of new and exciting people to meet.

Stage Five

The Crush - Over time you’ll begin to realize that your ex isn’t the only one in the world. Wow! There’s some damn fine peeps in this city. The point is, once you’re able to open yourself up again, other people will want to get to know you. Even if you’re not ready to start an intense relationship with somebody else, get out there and start having fun again. You’ll get over your ex a lot faster if you stop moping around.

Stage Six

FREEDOM! -You haven’t thought about your ex in days, (well it’s a start) and BAM, there they are strolling down the street with someone else, AND your stomach doesn’t lurch as if there’s a gerbil on steroids lodged in your intestines, your face doesn’t even turn bright red. When you say hi , your ex looks more uncomfortable than you. Once the encounter is over, you stroll away proud and tall and don’t think about the encounter for more then 10 minutes ever again.  (PS. Have they put on weight?). You smile, because now you know you are finally free and ready to open up and love again.

This concludes my analysis of the trauma of a broken heart, from my experience. Although some stages may be longer than others, the important thing to remember is, you WILL get over this. If someone doesn’t love you anymore or you don’t love them, there is no point in staying together even if it hurts to break up. Over time the pain will heal and you’ll be ready to let others in and share your wonderful self with them. If they break your heart, learn, feel (because it’s important to be human), and live again. I’m a true believer in soul mates, just because one relationship didn’t click, doesn’t mean that there’s not another person waiting close by to snatch you up.

There was a man who was raised to be good. He always helps people in need, other people are always before him. He tried so hard to pleased everyone else except for himself. He would ALWAYS help people in everyway he can, at the time he felt good about himself, he felt like a superhero.

Everyone stood beside him as he takes the glory and fame. He had all the selfconfident a man need. At that time, he was HAPPY. Until one day he had an accident. He was CRIPPLE.In that time he needed the support and the help from people. SADLY no one seems to care, no one seems to be helpfull as he thought people would be. He sits in his wheelchair wondering, why he was treated like that? why dont people appriciate him? Was there something wrong with his self? The longer he sits there, the more pain he got, the heartache he felt, thinking that the way he was being treated.

Then one day while he was mourning still in depress and in need of comfort and help came a BEAUTIFULL angel, she sat on his lap and asked him, whats was wrong. so he told the angel about whats been bothering him, the angel smiled, and said, "Dont Worry Im here, I’ll Help You". Hearing that the man smiled, it was a second chance for him, he felt happy again, he could smile again, and until one time, he could see the RAINBOW, so beatifull, so perfect, so peacefull. The angel helped him in so many ways, so many ways that even the man could not explain. The man started to help people again despite what people have done to him, he still smile and helped people, giving his arms to whoever need them.

Day after day went by, the man was so happy not realizing that the angel, was slowly disapearing from his life, not knowing why. One day, he stood by a lake, thinking like he used to do, suddenly he felt into the lake. He strugled to let hiself free and out of the water. He RAISED his arm way up high so that people could see that he was in distrest, unfortunatly people never realize and understood what he really felt.

He SCREAMED out loud in hope poeple would hear. Again he felt DISSEPOINTED. No one really understand what he was going through. He kept screaming and screaming, he strugled, despite his pain, his anger, trying to live,trying to love again, he kept thinking that maybe there were another explanation for what he just experienced.

There was so much forgivness in his heart, ready to forgive. Then, the angel gave her arms reaching him, helping him, trying to get him out of the water.But in the same times the angel was hurting him. The angel dont have the patience that she once had. The angel keep yelling at him to help himself, dont overreacted, its not that deep. The man tried and tried, then came to a time that the angel lost her patience and let go the man’s arms and flew away.

The man felt so depress, so sad, so betrayed not only for the angel, but to the mankind. And all the man wants was to people and the angel hear, understand what the man felt, a little attention that he never had, that was longing for, thats all he ever wanted. As he drown into the dark and cold water, he scream and kept screaming until his lung fills with water. He swalloed the cold water and anger,the depresssion,the dissapointement he felt.

Suddenly everything was quite, everything was dark, no more pain, no more regrets, no more dissapointment, the only thing that was left was ANGER. In that cold and dark water he was burried, people would never know what he felt, poeple would never understood him. An that was how the NICE GUY WAS KILLED!

                  Hate Me by Blue October

i have to block out thoughts of you so i don’t lose my head
they crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
dropping little reels of tape to remind me that i’m alone
playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
there’s a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
an ounce of peace is all i want for you. will you never call again?
and will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
and will you never try to reach me?
it is i that wanted space

hate me today
hate me tomorrow
hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

i’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
the one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing i won’t touch again
in a sick way i want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
while i was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
you never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
you made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
so i’ll drive so fucking far away that i never cross your mind
and do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

hate me today
hate me tomorrow
hate me for all the things i didn’t do for you

hate me in ways
yeah ways hard to swallow
hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

and with a sad heart i say bye to you and wave
kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that i had made
and like a baby boy i never was a man
until i saw your blue eyes crying and i held your face in my hand
and then i fell down yelling “make it go away!”
just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
and then she whispered “how can you do this to me?”

hate me today
hate me tomorrow
hate me for all the things i didn’t do for you

hate me in ways
yeah ways hard to swallow
hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m tired of this pain I feel , the pain that  can never just go away.

I’m sick of all the feeling down and hopeless.

I hate it when you turn your back, why is it patience you seem to lack?

I wonder why you do this to me time and time again, will I ever get the chance to win?

Sometimes I think that its just me, maybe its because I just never let things be.

You always say that I’m just over-reacting, but have you ever considered is because of everything your doing.

When will you finally figure it out, because when you do I will no longer feel this pain.

I give you chance after chance hoping you’ll change, but you never do, it all just stays the same.

I dont know how much more I can take, everyone has its limits.

I hope you’ll figure it out before its too late, before nothing is left.

I want you to know i aprriciate you with all my heart, but I’m scared were beginning to fall apart.

I need you by my side, through this aweful long dark and cold scary ride.

We can make it through just like we always do, you just need to stop making me feel blue.

So once again please listen to what I have to say, before you push me further away.

             So Sick by Ne yo

gotta change my answering machine
now that i’m alone
cuz right now it says that we
can’t come to the phone
and i know it makes no sense
cuz you walked out the door
but it’s the only way i hear your voice anymore
(it’s ridiculous)
it’s been months
and for some reason i just
(can’t get over us)
and i’m stronger then this
(enough is enough)
no more walkin round
with my head down
i’m so over being blue
cryin over you

and i’m so sick of love songs
so tired of tears
so done with wishing you were still here
said i’m so sick of love songs so sad and slow
so why can’t i turn off the radio?

gotta fix that calender i have
that’s marked july 15th
because since there’s no more you
there’s no more anniversary
i’m so fed up with my thoughts of you
and your memory
and how every song reminds me
of what used to be

that’s the reason i’m so sick of love songs
so tired of tears
so done with wishing you were still here
said i’m so sick of love songs so sad and slow
so why can’t i turn off the radio?

(leave me alone)
leave me alone
(stupid love songs)
dont make me think about her smile
or having my first child
i’m letting go
turning off the radio

       What comes around Goes Around by Justin Timberlake

Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?

You know I gave you the world You had me in the palm of your hand

So why your love went away I just can’t seem to understand

Thought it was me and you babe Me and you until the end

But I guess I was wrong

Don’t want to think about it

Don’t want to talk about it

I’m just so sick about it

Can’t believe it’s ending this way

Just so confused about it

Feeling the blues about it

I just can’t do without ya

Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it’s really going down?

Is this how we say goodbye?

Should’ve known better when you came around

That you were gonna make me cry

It’s breaking my heart to watch you run around

‘Cause I know that you’re living a lie

That’s okay baby ’cause in time you will find…

What goes around, goes around, goes around Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around Comes all the way back around

Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed

You said that you were moving on now

And maybe I should do the same

Funny thing about that is I was ready to give you my name

Thought it was me and you, babe And now,

it’s all just a shame And I guess I was wrong

Don’t want to think about it

Don’t want to talk about it

I’m just so sick about it

Can’t believe it’s ending this way

Just so confused about it

Feeling the blues about it I just can’t do without ya

Can you tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it’s really going down?

Is this how we say goodbye?

Should’ve known better when you came around

(should’ve known better that you were gonna make me cry)

That you were going to make me cry

Now it’s breaking my heart to watch you run around

‘Cause I know that you’re living a lie

That’s okay baby ’cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around Comes all the way back around

What goes around comes around Yeah What goes around comes around

You should know that What goes around comes around Yeah What goes around comes around

You should know that

Don’t want to think about it (no)

Don’t want to talk about it

I’m just so sick about it

Can’t believe it’s ending this way

Just so confused about it

Feeling the blues about it (yeah)

I just can’t do without ya

Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it’s really going down?

Is this how we say goodbye?

Should’ve known better when you came around

(should’ve known better that you were gonna make me cry)

That you were going to make me cry

Now it’s breaking my heart to watch you run around

‘Cause I know that you’re living a lie

But that’s okay baby ’cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around Comes all the way back around

[Comes Around interlude:]

Let me paint this picture for you,

baby You spend your nights alone

And he never comes home And every time you call him All you get’s a busy tone I

heard you found out That he’s doing to you What you did to me

Ain’t that the way it goes When you cheated girl

My heart bleeded girl

So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt

Just a classic case A scenario Tale as old as time

Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody To cure the lonely nights

You wish you had somebody That could come and make it right

But girl I ain’t somebody with a lot of sympathy

You’ll see (What goes around comes back around)

I thought I told ya, hey (What goes around comes back around)

I thought I told ya, hey (What goes around comes back around)

I thought I told ya, hey (What goes around comes back around)

I thought I told ya, hey

[laughs] See? You should’ve listened to me,

baby Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Because (What goes around comes back around) [laughs]

  Scars by PapaRoach

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I’m feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I’m pissed cause you came around
Why don’t you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can’t help you fix yourself
You’re making me insane
All I can say is
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you’re drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I’m drunk and I’m feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn’t ever come around
Why don’t you just go home?
Cause you’re drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn’t understand
Go fix yourself

I can’t help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I’m sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can’t help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I’m sorry but I gotta move on with my own life